what a year it has been

While everyone seems to be busy creating their "thank you" blogs and prattle endlessly about how wonderful their 2009 lives were, here I am, wondering how i would start to describe the life I had last year. i don't mean to complain, I really don't, but i just can't think of anything worthy to write about---i can't even begin to say thank you because I'm really not thankful for last year--I wanted 2009 to end quickly. it was a year of problems, misery and apologies that I could only take so much. Tears were shed and too much pain was felt. Surprisingly though, it made me feel good about myself---it didn't make me hate life, contrary to what some people might have felt. I could honestly say,without a doubt, 2009 was the worst year in all of my 25 years. The worst yet the most productive year---i don't know exactly why i'm saying this but that's just how i feel. I felt a change in me because of what i had to go through. There were several things I learned and realized. And as i finish up this particular blog of mine, i can't help but smile at the thought that,last year may have been somebody else's "year" but i plan on making 2010 "my year"!!! CHEERS!!!